DEPART FROM ME I NEVER KNEW YOU

DEPART FROM ME I NEVER KNEW YOU

PRIDE BEFORE THE FALL

TRUE STORY | 2017

Jocee Tan by hiddenremnant

When I first started as a minister of the faith. I learn one thing about serving.

Not everyone who was ones called will be chosen in the end.

And will remain the same.

Some will fall away and depart from the faith in the last days.

Many are called but few are chosen.

Not all will finished the race strong like how they started.

For not everyone who calls Him Lord Lord will inherit the Kingdom of heaven.

It is not a guarantee vip pass for each tree to stay free.

Let me share my story.

Please bare with me.

I remembered when I was under the leadership of my bishop/pastor.

She was the very first person to lead me to accept Christ as my Savior last 2017.

She wasn't just a leader to me, she was more than that.

A spiritual mentor a mother to me.

I look up to her and honor her mantle.

I watch her perform signs, miracles, and wonders one after the other.

Time, and time again.

Until my faith grew exponentially and tremendously over the time.

Blown away by how the Father use her life.

In awe of the power of God through her ministry.

I watch the sick healed.

The oppressed and demon possessed set free.

I tell you the truth miracles after miracles.

She was the very reasons why I fell inlove with the Lord Jesus Christ.

All by her amazing encounters, testimonies and love stories. 🥺

I would use to meet her everyday, to fellowship, worship, praise, and pray all day.

Almost everyday all night long.

From 6pm to 3am sometimes until 7am.

Not kidding you guys.

She was a woman of fire.

Yes, that's how on fire I was, and even until now.🔥

All I want is Jesus.

Just to know the Lord.

My hunger, and thrust for the Lord was unquenchable and undeniable.

Day after day I was excited to leave work to go see her.

This is before I quit my career to follow Jesus.

I watched her pray from morning to midnight.😮

And I was so inspired, and motivated to pray just like her.🙏🏽

I have to say....

I am proud to be spiritually raised under an african powerful woman of God.😭

She help trained and equipped me.

I serve her faithfully for 3 years before Father gave me my own ministry.

But one day.

I noticed a change in her behavior.

I couldn't figure out why for I was just a babe in the faith during those time.

As days goes by.

She kept making excuses why she couldn't fellowship and have bible study.

Then she cancelled sunday service.

Until 3 months later I continue to see patterns of bad behaviour.

Excuses after excuses.

Lies after lies.

She didn't realized the affect she has done to me, and the members as a whole.🥺

I was saddened for me but especially for the rest of the members.

Because she was the only pastor, and I was just an assistant.

Three months after.

Until one day she vanished, and I never heard from her again.

I message her but no responce.

I said everything I needed to say.

Without withholding.

I was wounded.

All the pain, and hurt she has cause me and the members was unacceptable, and cannot be tolerated.

No response and completely ignored it.

I said okay. Took a deep breath. Sigh!

I got the message and I let her go.

There is more to the story but it's way too deep to share.

My heart was torn and I weep on the Fathers feet. 😭💔

I cried and I cried for days.

Days, to weeks going to months.

Until I went through depression.

I was not alright, and could not moved on.

My heart was so hurt.❤️‍🩹

I was in pain feeling so rejected.

Heavily weigh.

Abandoned by my spiritual mentor.

A mother I look up to.

The depression lasted for 6 months.

Every day and night I cry.😭

To a point, I could no longer breath from the wounds and trauma.

Until one night around midnight.

While travailing to the Lord.

I saw Abba Father comforted me, and hugged me tight in His arms. 😭

Then one day Abba Father spoke to me.

He said, do not weep or mourn for her no longer.

For I have removed her out of your life.

Because I have a different plan for you.

And there is no room for her, where I am taking you.

I am elevating you and promoting you to your next level.

For I am doing a new thing in you.

Says the Father.

There is more what Father told me but it's sacred.

That's as far I can share.

When I heard Father spoke to me.

Tears fall out my eyes while receiving this message.😢

I knew then she no longer serving Him.

She decided to go back to the world.

I guess she thinks earning money is better than serving.

She backslided.😔

I was very saddened and heart broken.

I loved that woman with all my heart.

Father knows how much I do.

Because she has a big part in why I do what I do.

A year later Father told me to send her a word of rebuke from Him.

I obeyed and send her what Father said.

She did not accept the word of rebuke and rejected the message. 🥺

She has become very prideful.

Pride before the fall......indeed it's true.

I watch her on fire for the Lord to being prideful.

And that was the very last time we spoke.

Years later she keeps popping into my mind, so I prayed for her. 🙏🏽

Then last January I asked the Father how she is doing? is she well?

Did she repented from her sin?

And Father said no.

Then I asked Father if I can pray for her?

Father said no, I wont answer.

And tears started falling out my eyes.

I said is there any hope for her? 😭💔

Father said there is no hope for her.

And then I asked, will she make it in the rapture when you come?

Father said no, she will perish in her sinful ways.

Crying....😭😭😭

Then Father revealed to me in a vision what exactly is going to happen to her.

How she will perish in the days to come.

I saw a huge meteor coming from the sky, and landed on earth with full force.

It destroyed half of the earth. 🌏

I saw it with my eyes in my vision.

And she died along with others who was also left behind including my friends back in the days.

This will take place before rapture.

😭😭😭

Those are the people I was ones very close with back in the old times when I was in the world.

I have prayed for them many times.

But Father told me there is no hope for them.

For they have already made up their mind, and choose the world over His word.😔

This was the hardest revelations, I have ever received from the Father by far.

Losing someone you ones honored and love so much is heart breaking.

But knowing that there is no hope for them to be save is even horrifying. 💔😔

The Father made me know He is not playing.

For His judgment upon the evil doers is at hand, and they will all perish if they don't repent.

My heart is very heavy while typing this very painful story of mine.😢😔😭

This is what the bible declares.

In the last days many will become lovers of self, money and will betray each other.

And why the Lord says, not all those who calls Him Lord Lord shall enter His Kingdom.

Even when they prophesied in His name.

Even when they perform signs and wonders.

Even if they healed the sick and cast out demons and raise the dead.

But at the end.

The LORD shall say,

Depart from me I never knew you.

You workers of iniquities.

😭😭😭

MATTHEW 7:21-23

21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ 23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’