FOREVER IN DEPTH TO MY KING

FOREVER IN DEPTH TO MY KING

"TO YOU, BUT TO ME YOU ARE"

CROWN OF LOYALTY

SEPT 30 2024 |

Jocee Tan by Hidden Remnant

John 15:13

Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

IN A WORLD WHERE LOYALTY NO LONGER

EXIST, BE THE ONE TO BREAK THE CYCLE.

And in a world full of unfaithful people be faithful. Don't be like the rest of the world.

For the past months, I have been in a hunt seeking to dive deeper into the glory realms of my truest calling.

Though I have faithfully accepted my title and position yet I choose not to carry the name with me.

It's better this way.

Call me a servant for that is who I am.

I am just a simple woman of God. Who serves an extra ordinary mighty God.

And I am here to serve. 🙇🏻‍♀️🙏🏼

But I always have questions at the back of my head, why out of all the people in the world. Why me?

Today Sep 30 2024.

I decided to take a bold step of faith in the throne of grace to ask the question, I have been longing to ask Holy Father for numbers of years.

And so I asked Holy Father why me, why He chose me, and pick me? when there are so many faithful, and mighty servants of the Lord. For I am not worthy.

I am not worthy to untie His sandals. 😔

There are so many mighty servants of God who truly serve you faithfully?

Numbers of them are hard workers for the expansion of your kingdom?

A great good deal are generals of the faith and they can do even what I cannot do?

Many of them are mighty and strong.

They are bold, confident and they know what they are doing?

Meanwhile I am the weakest of them all.

And the truth is I cannot even do half of what they can do. 🥺

You could have chosen Kathryn Kulhman to be your number 13th disciple.

Or Pastor Anosike, or even Prophet Tb Joshua oh how strong, mighty and faithful they are to serve you.

I am truly blessed by them.

I honor their lives.

And there are many more of them out there who serves you faithfully, but why me?

For I am the very least amongst all.

And I weep and sob to Heavenly Fathers feet on the throne.

Crying to Him why He chose me. For I truly do not consider myself strong. I am the weakest and have very little strenght.

I do not see myself strong at all.

I have many short comings. I have many flaws, and I am nothing close to being perfect.

I am not worthy to be called your number 13th apostle.

And while I cry to the Father.

Then He said,

"To you, but to Me you are."

Proverbs 20:6

Many a man proclaims his own steadfast love, but a faithful man who can find?

😭😭😭

Then Father gave me a crown, and presented it to me, and put it on my head. It is the CROWN OF LOYALTY.

Father said for I am loyal to Him. I serve Him faithfully even in my small. And even when I was bleeding, I still serve Him with all my heart.

Without nothing missing nothing lacking. Rain or shine I serve. Sick or not I shall serve. No matter how many times I have been afflicted with many desease I still serve.

Nothing can stop me from serving. Not even death can stop me.

Even when I was attacked, slandered, and persecuted I did not quit on Him. Even when I was wounded and scarred in all sides, I never give up, but still serve Him in excellence.

I did not just serve for the sake of serving because its a duty or just a responsibility. But simply because I love Him, and my love for souls.

While typing Father said yes it's true. 🥺

I do not serve for I want recognition. This is not why, I do what I do. But I serve for the reasons of I love my heavenly Father.

And I am totally committed to Him, and Him alone, till death. I gave my life to serve my Father, not to be served.

This is my life.

For I only do what I see my Father do.

The crown looks absolutely stunning and gorgeous. Exactly just like the image you see attached below, but more glorious.

And I was wearing a royal gown with my long, and frizy dark brown hair. I look so pretty in my gown, and my hair so long and wonderfully done just like a Queen.

Oh how I look stunning. 😭

So touched yet again, I receive another crown.

My heart melts in amazement of my Fathers unfailing and unceasing love for me. It's all because of His greatest love.

Father said, He does not give crown like that so easily just to anyone. What others will take 30 to 50 years to receive.

To me it only took 7 years.

And indeed it's true. For I have receive many crowns and gifts from the Father waaay too many to behold.

Now please don't take me the wrong way, I do not boast of myself or what I can do, nor I boast of my strenght and abilities. Not at all.

Hear what I am not saying.

As I have already mentioned aboved, I considered myself the very least of all. I promise you, I am nothing without my Lord. There's nothing to boast. 🙇🏻‍♀️🙏🏼

I am just a dust made of flesh, and bones with blood. Dust I am, and dust I also shall return.

I can do nothing apart from Him. I can only boast in the LORD just like Apostle Paul said. My strenght comes from Him.

Halleluyaaah glory to Jesus 😭

Amen thank you pa.

Upon hearing this I weep all the more.

And I could not contain myself. I cried and was sobbing the whole day.

Then Father spoke to one of my elder disciples, why He chose me.

Father told her it's because of my dedication to serve Him.

DEDICATION: The quality of being dedicated or committed to a task or purpose.

Commitment. Wholeheartedness. Zeal.

Single-mindedness. Enthusiasm. Drive.

Diligence. Resoluteness. Purposefulness.

Perseverance. Persistence. Tenacity.

Hard work. Effort. Labor. Striving

Devotion. Devotedness. Faithfulness.

But most of all LOYALTY.

Thank you Lord for your unfailing matchless and indescribable love.

Love that has no end. Love that has no bound. Love that fails not. Love that is willing to give His very own life.

What kind of Love that a God can give to someone so small and weak like me?

Who is like you LORD?

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I owe it to the God of the highest Heavens.

And I am eternally in-depth to you oh my King, my Lord, and my God. Elohim. Adonai.

I cannot repay you pa for everything you have done. There is no amount of words I can say, to thank you, for your love.

And so all I can give to you in return of your love is my life.

A surrendered life just for you and a consecrated life. A life of sacrifice seperated from the world.

You can do whatever you desire, and whatever you pleased with me. For I am now dead to my self. 🥺

It is no longer I who lives but Christ.

Philippians 1:21

For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

And I wouldn't change it for the world.

Proverbs 17:17

A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

Proverbs 18:24

A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Deuteronomy 7:9

Know therefore that the Lord your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations.

1 Corinthians 4:2

Moreover, it is required of stewards that they be found faithful.

1 Corinthians 16:13-14

Be watchful, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong. Let all that you do be done in love.

John 14:15

If you love me, you will keep my commandments.