I DON'T BELONG!

I DON'T BELONG!

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Here's a little story of a life of a seer.

Id like to share my behind the scene.

What it's like to live on this world as a seer. A feeler. And a burden carrier.

While I was out the other day for easter sunday dinner.

All I wanted is to eat my meal, and go home.

I wasn't planning on staying out late.

Because I don't like to be out for too long.

While I sat waiting for my food.

I can't help but noticed around me.

Noise irritates my being.

For I like peace, and quite time.

The restaurant is too loud.

People around are too hype.

I see all kinds of colors from different nation, and backgrounds.

Enjoying each others company.

As I look around, and observed.

I perceived in my spirit.

They all look different.

But at the same time they are all uniformed spiritually, and mentally.

They may all look different, come from a different background.

Yet, they all have one thing in common.

Carnality has become the norm.

The traditions of men.

And the system of this world.

They look like robots to me.

But with human bodies, and flesh.

Well rehearsed and in order, yet out of order.

You may not understand what I utter.

For I no longer see through the eyes of human lens, but I only see through the eyes of my heavenly Father.

Therefor I see differently now.

Children no longer play outside, but more focus on their favorite toys.

Called gadgets and technologies. 📱

This generation today are use to their new addiction.

Obsession to x-box, phones, ipads, tablets, and play station.

Just like the image I edited below.

I hear their every conversation.

I am a seer, I can hear, feel, taste, smell, and see everything. 🤧

Finally my food arrived. Phew!

And I could not wait to eat, and leave.

But the dessert took a little longer to come.

I was getting impatient because of my surroundings. Not because I hate people.

Not at all, but seers are are not meant to be out in the world.

By reasons of seers can't contain the spiritual world.

Then suddenly.

I discern in the airwaves.

My heart starts beating fast. 💗

I can hear my heart beat.

Bobom bobom bobom.

Louder, and louder.

Everything around me is collapsing.

And I started to feel heavy.

I feel like I was going to faint.

The atmosphere was so thick.

It was foggy, and cloudy.

I can't breath. 😮‍💨

Like I was going to pass out.

I tried to stay calm.

And I close my eyes, and hold my hands together.

To gather myself together.

I took a breather. Sighing! 😌

My heart continues to beat faster.

Bobom bobom bobom! 💓

Everything around me was just suffocating me.

I feel constricted.

Remember that I am a feeler.

I feel everything around me spiritually and physically. 😮‍💨

A feeler is like having a spiritual tentacle and antenna. We get our prophetic signal through our antenna.

Most times through emotion, touch, and feel.

I didn't feel good.

I then started to speak to Abba Father.

And I prayed silently just within me.

While talking to Him. 🙏🏽

Then, I look at the time.

The time was ticking.

So fast, but so slow at the same time.

Every minute that passes by.

I am getting more anxious.

And overwhelmed.

I keep looking at the time.

And it keeps going so quick.

Tic tok I swear it was just 8:30pm.

Everytime the clocks tik.

I am becoming more fragile.

The last time I checked the time.

How is it that it's already passed 9?

I am now concern.

Why the dessert is taking so long.

What in the world.

I cannot take it anymore and about to disentegrate. 🤕

Then I said to the Father.

I don't want to be here longer.

I do not want to stay out late at night.

Please take over in the kitchen, to get our orders faster so we can eat, and head out. Quickly. 🥺🙏🏽

Father made me know He will.

As I cotinue to wait.

I look at the time again.

It's now 9:30pm.

This is very late for me.

Because I am not use of being out.

For I do not go out often.

I live a life of consecration.

Seperated from the world.

I never go out unless it's needed.

I only go outside to grab a quick food.

Or unless I have to run errands or very important matters.

Other than that.

I am not a type of person to enjoy being out.

I am a hermit a homebody.

I spend my nights, and days abiding in the presense of my Abba Father.

The last 7 years.

I cannot and will not survive without Him.

Finally food arrived.

I was feeling lethargic at that moment.

Because of the spiritual contamination.

The atmosphere is saturated with all kinds of spirits.

Spirits of this world. 👥️

I could not stand it. Ugh!

I had a few bites, and did not finish.

Immediately I said I want to go home.

I just could not take being out there that long.

The most I can handle is 2 hours max being outside. Maybe 3 the most.

And it is only by the grace of God.

But after that I start to feel weak.

And nautious. 😮‍💨🤕🤧

For I am a burden bearer.

A burden bearer is someone who is sensitive to the people, and spiritual atmospheres around them. It is a gift of intercession. When you know what is happening around you, you can pray about it, and help “bear one another's burdens”

For that reasons I am very sensitive to my surroundings.

Everything around me is like a ticking time bomb.

I hear peoples thoughts outloud, I sense their motives, and I can see through their hearts, and I discern their agendas.

It is not a fun thing for me often times.

Because I just want to eat, and mind my own business.

So even if I don't want to listen to their conversation or private talks, I can still hear them.

Hear their thoughts outloud.

The surrounding is so dark. Awcks!

It irritates the living day light out of me.

I can't breath because of suffocation.

Wheew! 😮‍💨

Finally we left, and I felt a bit better.

And I could not wait to just go home and spend time with my Abba Father.

But we had to stop by at the grocery store, to buy bottle water.

While entering the store.

I feel like an alien in this world.

Oh I am not kidding you. 😫

I stop, and paused.

And look around me.

Everyone is busy with their business.

Going here, there, left, and right to center. Busy with the cares of this world.

I could not contain how overwhelmed I was. For the spirit world is so active.

I can sense it spiritually.

Because life is more spiritual than it is natural.

I feel like a foreigner to this country. 😣

I look around and for a minute.

I had a moment of silence.

Everything paused.

As if the time stop and frozed.

And I was lost.

Lost in this world. 🌏

As if everything is new to me.

Wondering where am I within me?

And then I took a step, and took a few more steps to the door.

Closer to the street.

Like I could not even cross the street.

Afraid to take a step further.

But even crossing the street was difficult for me.

Like a newbie or something.

I don't understand myself anymore.

What in the world is happening to me.

Then I breath. 😔😢

And continue walking.

Finally, I reach home.

Thank you Abba for keeping me safe out there in this dark world we live in.

I could not wait to just immersed in the presence of my Abba.

Quickly, I tarry in the secret place.

Soaked in my Abbas liquid love.

Surrounded in His glory cloud.

Wrap up in His chabod like a blanket.

Enveloped and covered in His arms.

Finally I am home. ❤️🥺

I feel better.

My mind is clear.

I can now see perfectly.

I can breath again.

The thick fogginess was gone.

I feel restored, and renewed in Him.

My heart no longer beating so fast.

My chest rate is back to normal.

It feels good to be back. 🥺

And then I realized.

Father made me know.

It is because I am no longer from this world.

Though I am in this world, but I am not of this world anymore.

I am a kingdom citizen of heaven.

Born in the spirit.

A newly transformed creation.

A perfected spirit in Christ.

The old is gone, and the new is here.

I am a king, and son. A kingdom child.

A daughter of the most high and a royal priesthood. The bride of Christ.

For this is who I am in Christ Jesus.

Fully paid, and bought with a price.

All by grace not by my works.

So I cannot boast. 🙇🏻‍♀️

This world is no longer my world.

My world is the kingdom of my God.

Though my flesh still resides on earth.

But my spirit is seated in heavenly places.

On the right hand side of my Lord.

Created, and made to rule, and reign beside Him.

This is why I feel this way.

Because I don't belong.

John 17:16

They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.

Hidden Remnant