JOURNEY TO MY RECOVERY

JOURNEY TO MY RECOVERY

RESTING IN HIS GLORY

TRUE STORY | NOV 3 2023

Jocee Tan by HiddenRemnant

Before I begin.

First let me tell you my journey with the Father. This is my true story.

Over the past 4 years perhaps longer.

I have been very busy building behind the scenes. Preparing. Innovating and dreaming with the Father.

So occupied pouring into many lives of the people around the globe, and have not taken a deep breath to relax even for a min.

Because I see the demands on many souls that I could not reject or say no.

So many out there are hurting, broken, wounded and lost. What about them?

I could not bare to see, and watch them suffer, and carry such heavy burdens all alone.

To a point of denying myself, only so I can reach out to them and give them a hand.

Until one day my body shut down.

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Many times my body is screaming to me for help, please slow down you are burning out.

But I continue to ignore it because of the responsibilities on my shoulder.

Listen to me my role is not a puny.

I carry a nation and other nation(s).

I can't just take a day off, and rest while people are in desperate need. 😭

I see the need of the people and it is my burden to help them.

Didn't the bible say carry each others burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of the Lord?

Galatians 6:2

Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

Many times my body has given up on me, but at the same time, im still running around with my heads cut off, back and forth, left to right, to and fro reaching out and helping out. 🥺

How could I say no?

People are perishing day after day.

And so I died to my self everyday, again, and again and again. 😢

I forgot myself and denied my self for the sake of putting others needs first.

But here is the reality.....

I am exhausted, tired and beat.

I could no longer take another step.

But the Lord is the only one who is holding me tight, and keeping me alive.

Giving me the strenght to continue. 🥺

The battles and warfare I endure is no joke but tremendously exhausting mentally, physically, verbally, and emotionally.

There are times I wake up in the morning and I can't move. I can't even get up.

To my surprise I am still alive. 😭

It takes a lot of Fathers grace and mercy for me to still stand today.

Many of you do not know this.

This is the truth. 😭

Without Him I could have been gone long time ago. Only by His hand of mercy why I am still here today sharing my story.

Without the Lord I am nothing.

Right now, I am badly beat and wounded from all the battles and attacks I had to fight over the last 6 years.

I am battled weary.

I feel like King David. 😔

We are partakers in Christ suffering.

And we must endure to the end no matter the cost.

My life is not my own.

To live for Christ and to die is gain.

And this is my life. I am willing to die for my Lord. 🥺

A great price not all are willing to pay.

John 16:33

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

1 Peter 4:13

But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

There is only so much a body can take.

At some point, our body gives up on us.

It doens't matter how strong and healthy you think you are.

After all we are only dust, made of flesh and blood. For dust we are, dust we shall return.

Our body is just a vehicle and it's only temporary.

I am so busy serving while bleeding, that I have been forgetting about myself.

After all we are to forget our self right? That is part of denying what the flesh wants. And feeding what the spirit wants.

Totally forgetting to take care of my health.

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Lately my health started catching up on me.

And again I say this with nothing but the humility and truth, only by the hand of mercy of God, that I am still breathing.

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I have been pushing myself day after day and I am now to my wits end.

Then Father told me a week ago, I need to slow down, and rest in Him, because if I don't, I will fall apart.

And that was a wake up call for me to stop, pause, and take a deep breath to recover, heal, and recalibrate.

I decided to take my health more seriously, and obeyed the Father.

I am in my journey to recovery and in the process of healing thanks be to God.

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The past week I am taking some time away from my students and just been taking it easy.

Taking care of me is my priority right now in His presence.

Every now and then we all need to pause and stop and take a break.

Like when Elijah had to hide in the mountain to rest for 40 days to recuperate because he was burnt out.

We also need to do the same or we will break down and shut down.

So I am taking some time away.

To come away in His loving arms, to rest in our sacred space.

Yes I am still scribing and releasing what Father reveals to me for the people.

But that's about it for now.

Other than that, class will have to wait until I return 100% renewed and restored.

I need to take my health seriously.

And I am now learning the importance of slowing down. 🥺

Been busy spending time with the Father in the secret place just resting in Him.

And Father has been so so so good to me. I really don't know what I will do without Him by my side. 😭

Last night while praying eyes close.

Medidating in silence and stillness.

I saw Abba Father carrying me on His shoulder like a little child.

I am so small compare to Him, and He is so big.

Holding me so tightly in His arms, and carrying me so gently like a little baby resting on His arms.

He was wearing a white robes with His black shoulder lenght long hair to His back.

Just like the image I personally made below.

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I weep and groan to see the faithfulness of our Lord Jesus Christ the Son of God.

Oh Lord how faithful are you oh God?

How marvelous are you oh God?

How glorious are you oh God?

How sovereign are you oh God?

How majestic are you oh God?

Waaaaaa 😭❤️

My heart was so touched to see how loving and precious our Abba Father.

Up until now He is carrying me.

Even as I write this testimony.

His love is endless. I have seen His faithfulness time and time again.

Then He reminded me of what He told me in my love letter in the morning.

This is what Father said to me yesterday.

The Father says today, I am the King of Glory, strong, powerful, and mighty in battle.

I am on your side, fighting to put you across finishing lines to the land of promise.

You may feel alone in this epic destiny battle but you’re not, for many are those routing for you, and cheering you on than all the hordes of evil trying to pull you down.

You are tired, and at your wits end, but I am holding you with my powerful hand so that you make it to your destination right on time.

Your journey is different from everybody’s so keep focus and listen to your instructions from the throne and don’t emulate anyone.

In destiny journeys, some arrive earlier than others because their journeys and pathways are different.

Your journey is exclusive to you, so look to me and let me guide you to your destination says the Father.

Beloved, I am speeding up the process so that you don’t fall apart says God.

Your time is now, and your hopes will not be differed.

Keep this hope alive and brace yourself for an eleventh-hour breakthrough.

I am with you, and I am your God.

I am holding your hand, so hold your nerve for together we walk across this final hurdle to the promise place says God.

This destination is within touching distance, and we are arriving sooner rather than later.

You have spied the land and it’s the same land flowing with the proverbial milk and honey just as I promised from the beginning, it is the land of the blessing where you will drink from overflowing cups of blessing and experience my goodness and mercy as compensation for navigating a difficult journey and arriving on time says the Father.

Who is like you Lord???? No one is like you. No one can compare to you. No one can stand against you. No one can snatch me away from my Fathers arms.

My God. I am forever in dept to you Lord.

My life belongs to you and you alone.

I am yours forever, and you are mine forever and ever till the ends of the world.

So precious and so dear to me.

My first love. ❤️

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Psalm 35:28

Then my tongue shall tell of your righteousness and of your praise all the day long.

Mark 5:19

And he did not permit him but said to him, “Go home to your friends and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how he has had mercy on you.”

Psalm 107:1-2

Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever! Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he has redeemed from trouble.

2 Timothy 1:8-9

Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord, nor of me his prisoner, but share in suffering for the gospel by the power of God, who saved us and called us to a holy calling, not because of our works but because of his own purpose and grace, which he gave us in Christ Jesus before the ages began,

Hebrews 2:12

Saying, “I will tell of your name to my brothers; in the midst of the congregation I will sing your praise.”