THE SOUND OF HIS HEART ENCOUNTER

THE SOUND OF HIS HEART ENCOUNTER

RESTING IN FATHERS BOSOM

DEC 22 2024

Jocee Tan by Hidden Remnant

Lately, I have been talking to the Father about unfaithfulness. 😔

And there is no one else who truly understands..... but Him.

The Holy Father Himself is the only one who can relate to the pain.

After all, Father knows what it's like to be betrayed by a disciple and by His first creation Lucifer.

Thus no one can understand better than Him.

Let me fill you in a little before I proceed to share my heart wrenching story.

I know, I have mentioned it lately.

But I have not really allowed you in my hidden behind the scene life personally.

Everytime I hear someone say the word.

"Trust Me"

Something in me can't receive it.

I cannot bear the word TRUST.

For this word trust is not just a word.

It's deeper than you all may think and more sacred than you may perceived.

Unless you walk my walk, and Fathers walk? Unless you drink from the Fathers cup of suffering then you will.

But you will never truly fathom to comprehend the pain, the hurt and the sorrow we both endured.

Sobbing as I write..... 😢

The word trust brings me anxiety.

Like I can't breath, because of the past pain that hunts me.

The kind of pain no one will understand.

The pain that only the Father resonate.

The kind of pain only God can heal.

You really do not know pain, until you experience pain.

The kind of pain no man understand.

To a point you kneel and begged God to heal your shattered heart.

Pain you ask God to take it away.

Pain you cannot control, for you have no control no matter how much you try.

Pain you cannot explain to anyone.

Pain you have no words to describe.

The kind of pain you turn your face away, to hide it away, hoping to make it go away, when tears fall out your eyes.

Pain you try to hide but you can't.

Pain you deal with alone. Yes all alone.

Though I am not really alone.

The kind of pain you cry yourself at

night, and wake up with tears soaked in your pillow.

Pain that no amount of money can heal.

The kind of pain that almost destroyed me to the very core.

For it tore my heart, and ripped my soul apart. 💔

It pains me to see myself in so much pain, that hurts so much type of pain.

The kind of pain, I just want to sleep.

Not an ordinary sleep, but to close my eyes forever.

Yes, the type of pain I begged God, please take it away, or just take my life away, because there's no reasons to live.

Pain only God can restore, and only He knows the dephness and solemnity of the pain that I had to endure. 💔😭😢

Trust only takes 1 day to be completely destroyed, but it takes years to build up to decades.

Over the last many years,

Truly I tell you, I know nothing but pain.

I have undergone the worst betrayal.

Rejection and persecution.

Betrayal from people whom I love.

From all my family members and friends.

People I have shown nothing but good.

No matter what I have done, and no matter what I did even after all the love, care and all the goodness I have shown.

Was not enough, and still betrayed me.

I tell you the truth it was betrayal, after betrayal after betrayal.

Treachery is worst than murder.

For it can kill the very core of your being.

For the reasons when you are betrayed, it's like you are being murdered at the same time while you are still alive.

Thus it is worst than being killed.

Since you get to lived on to still experience the unbearable pain.

Atleast when you die it's over.

You feel it no more.

It reminds me how Lucifer betrayed the Father after all Father has done for him.

If you have not read the revelation of Lucifers origin of the fall I suggest you to read it.

It will open your eyes to a next level of understanding.

And last night as I spend time with the Father, in our meeting place, in the inner chamber.

As I lay my head on Fathers bosom like a little child holding on to her daddy with all her life and all her being.

Holding on to the only one who cannot hurt me and who will never leave me or ever forsake me.

To the only one who never lets me down.

I said to pa, as I take a deep breath.

Sigh* 😮‍💨 with a deep silence coming from the dephness of my broken heart.

My soul travails from an old wounds that can never be forgotten.

A very painful history that seems to never fade away and keep hunting my memory.

Every now and then....

From time to time. How can I forget?

And I said, forgive me but I have lost hope in humanities.

For man has brought God nothing but pain. Father responded yes. 😔

Eversince from the foundation of the world.

Man knew nothing but treachery.

Wickedness, and evil deeds.

Not one person I can trust now a days.

Not even family members or love ones can be truly trusted, as I gasp for air while in tears. 😭

My heart was so heavily weigh.

I don't believe what anyone says anymore because of betrayal.

People are filled with empty promises.

Meaningless words that means nothing.

Making vows they cannot even keep.

They worship you with their lips but their hearts are empty and far away from you.

I can't and will never trust anyone again.

The only one who I can trust is you.

I say this to pa while I cry on His arms.

Only God is faithful and true.

You are the only person, I know I can trust. And I am glad that atleast I have you. I am happy that I found you.

You are the only one I can count on.

The only one I can lean to. 😭

There is no one else but you.

No one else like you pa.

And I am so happy to know that I can trust you. 🫂

Even your own creation do not fear you.

They don't even love you. 😔

Father said its true.

Man have brought nothing but hurt and sorrow to Father throughout this years.

For so long and so many decades.

Since the beginning from Adama and Eva, to Cain and even your chosen disciple Judas, they have only brought you betrayals and disappointment.

Father said yes.

And I know that it pains you, for what they have done. Fathers heart and mine are one.

I carry my heavenly Fathers heart. ❤️

I know His pain, and I see His sorrow.

I hate what man has done against you.

I despiced it. And I hate it with passion.

And especially what Lucifer has done.

They easily forget who created them.

Why can't man just obey and love you?

What is wrong with your people?

Sobbing... 😭

Don't they have any regard for you?

Don't they have fear of the Lord?

Man have no love for God, sad.

I cannot trust anybody this days.

All because of unfaithfulness.

Human grieves my heart pa.

If they can hurt you and betray you let alone me, I am just a flesh and blood.

It's only because of your grace we are still here.

It's only because of the Fathers love, why we are still given a chance each day to make it right.

It's only by His mercy we have not been wiped out and extinct.

If Jesus the Son of God did not come on earth to give His life for us as a ransom.

Then we would have been finished long ago, and where will you be today?

Even after all the pain, the heartache, the hurt, the betrayal, the evil we have done against the Sovereign Lord.

The Father of heavens and God of LOVE.

But Father still gave His one, and only beloved Son, and the Father Son still willingly gave His life for you and me.

Sometimes we can easily forget His grace. His love on the cross. His mercy.

We don't remember His greatest sacrifice on the cross for we are ungrateful.

While Father holds me in His warm embrace, I feel so warm. As I lean on His heart, I hear my Fathers heart beat.

The sound is like a music to my ears.

It brings healing to my broken soul.

Just like the image you see below, that is how I lay on my Abba Fathers bosom.

Like a little child.🥺

I feel home. There is no place like home.

This is home to me.

The origin of where humans come from.

For we are created from the heart of God and made from the breath of His mouth.

We are spirits made from the God of all Spirits.

Leaning on my heavenly Fathers heart reminds me of home. Where I belong.

Then Father said,

"I am weepy for what happened to Me"

😭😭😭

Father hurts too, He moarn too, He longs for all His children to love Him too.

Because those who truly obeys Him, loves Him. But Father said My people do not know Me. And they do not love Me.

The church in this hour, are content with only having church gatherings, going through the daily mundane, and church attendance, for them is enough.

But the people do not seek Him. And they do not desire to go deeper with the Lord to have a deeper connection.

They do not have regards to have an intimate relationship with the Father. Going to a church building, waving flags and singing is enough for them.

Fellowshipping is more than enough for them. But they do not have the longing and thirst to get to know Him in a deeper level.

And that saddens the Father.

It grieves Father, because it pushes Him away from you. When you do not desire to go after Him, and persue Him it limits His presence from coming closer to you.

How then can Father comes, and dine with you, if you are not seeking Him with revencial fear and awe of Him?

Don't you want to get to know Him?

Have you no love for Father?

I don't know about you but I do.

All day everyday, I long and thrust for Him. I want nothing but Him. All I want is my Abba Father.

For He is my safe haven. He is my resting place. He is my strenght. My source. My hope. My love and my everything.

He is the air I breath. The lover of my soul. Without Him I cannot live. 😢

I can only find true satisfaction, and happiness in my heavenly Father. I cannot find it else where.

Church building cannot complete me.

Only the Father Yah, the Father Son, and the Father Holy Spirit can make me whole.

I find peace that surpasses beyond my understanding whenever we are together.

I find my solace in His arms of grace.

I can only find this in Him and nowhere else. 😭

I lived, and moved and have our being.

Acts 17:28

For in him we live and move and have our being.’ As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.

Father is like an air I cannot live without.

He is like an oxygen that I need daily.

His presence brings me peace.

His smile brings me Joy.

His sweet embrace makes me feel whole.

He completes every fibre of my being.

In Him I am absolute out and out.

In Him I am make perfect.

Perfected in His love.

Where else can I find this kind of love?

Who else can compare to this?

Nothing else truly matters.

Then while we spend time from 10pm all the way to 8 in the morning Father gives me sweet sweet kisses on my left cheek.

Waaaaa! 😭❤️

Again, and again pa kisses my cheeks.

Muaaaah muaaaah muaaahh!!

I am filled with sweet kisses from my pa.

The sweetest Abba Father.

Where else would I go to get this kind of love, affection and attention?

When Father loves, He does not split His attention with anyone else.

He does not mentioned anyones name to me while we commune.

Never ever He gives me kisses then say,

"This is what I desire from My children"

Father doesn't speak to me this way.

You need to understand something.

Father is not divided. Nor He is half hearted like humans.

Never ones Father is distracted.

When we spend time together.

All His attention, love, and affection is only on me. Yes. I kid you not. I promise.

His eyes are tranfixed on the apple of His eyes. 🍎

He is not distracted or bothered by the cares of this world like our earthly Father.

He is God and He is powerful.

Pa is always focused on me. When we are having our quality time.

Don't you see from the glory clouds I share to you, His eyes are always watching me all day everyday for 24/7.

While typing this,

Father responded and said yes it is true.

He never talks to me about anyone. He does not mention His other children.

Father is LOVE HIMSELF His got so much love to give. He is the very image of love. For He is the person of love.❤️

He is full of His love, His love never runs dry or runs out.

And He is not pacing back and forth looking and searching for His people while He is having quality time with His beloved ones.

Infact Father is the most focused person I know. More focused than I will ever be.

He is not distracted or divided. But He always gives me His undivided attention.

For there is time for everything.

When we are praying together, then yes He will tell me who to pray for, and who to intercede.

Like I mentioned there is time for everything.

Quality time is different. Bonding time is different. Praying time is different. Warring time is different story.

When we are having Father and child bonding. His attention, love and affection is only on me.

The apple of His eyes. 🍎🥺

Id like to share Fathers love letter for me

from His servant.

"The Sound of Music. Your Father's Heartbeat is music to your ears."

And I saw the Bride of Christ being led into a Chamber. Beautiful unearthly indescribable music was playing. It was the the Chambers of the Father's Heart. The Angels were singing and joining with the Sound. All of heaven and creation were One with the music.

"Beloved. I am drawing you away with Me. Lean on Me. The King has brought you into His Chambers. It is where the MUSIC of the universe is composed and released.

"You shall experience and be one with My Joyful Heart. A joyful heart does good like a medicine. I am resetting your rhythm with Mine.

"You have been raised up with Christ and seated with Me in the Heavenly Realms. In all the coming ages, I will display the surpassing riches of My Grace with the Kindness of My Heart.

"Lean your head upon Me and listen to the Heartbeat of Heaven. As we commune, your very DNA will sing with Mine. We are One.

"The Father’s Heart of Love is the Music that runs the universe.

"Can you feel it, My Child? You can feel My Music in your very soul.

"Every created thing is vibrating with My Power. From the beginning of time, My Sound and Song have been reverberating throughout all creation.

"You were fearfully and wonderfully made in My image. You are no accident, Precious One. My Music is in you. Your heart beats with My Rhythm. You have your own unique song.

"When you are born again, My Song intertwines with your song. Look to Me, Dear One. My Love is healing the broken places, restoring your joy, bringing you peace.

"Just rest in Me, because it is by My Spirit that this shall be done. Lean on your Savior's bosom for you are the one I love.

"My Song is rearranging your very DNA. With each beat, I am changing you from glory to glory.

"For the LORD your God is in your midst, a Mighty One who will save; I rejoice over you with gladness; I will quiet you by My Love; I will exult over you with loud singing.

"Everything will come into alignment when you surrender to the Sound of Heaven. Deep is calling unto deep. I am the Healer of the brokenhearted.

"Arise, come away, My Beloved. Turn to Me until the Day breathes and the shadows flee. I have brought you to My Banqueting House, and My Banner over you is Love."

MUSIC and DNA

"Regular patterns and sequences of notes exist throughout music, from the pitches of a scale to the rhythms of a song. The same goes for the building blocks of life. Patterns govern the way molecules fit together to construct a DNA molecule or a protein strand. When these patterns are translated into the patterns of music, they contain very beautiful melodies and rhythms."

(Dr. David W. Deamer)

MUSIC TO YOUR EARS

An idiomatic expression that means something is very pleasant or satisfying to hear. It often refers to news, information, or compliments that bring joy or relief to the listener. Something that makes you feel very happy when you hear it because you have been hoping or waiting to hear it for a long time. Something that is pleasant or gratifying to hear or discover. Hearing something considered to be very good news. (Dictionary online)

"Now there was leaning on Jesus' bosom one of His disciples, whom Jesus loved." John 13:23

“The LORD your God is in your midst, a Mighty One who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you by His love; He will exult over you with loud SINGING,” Zephaniah 3:17.

“Draw me after you and let’s run together! The king has brought me into His CHAMBERS. We will rejoice in You and be joyful; we will praise Your love more than wine. Rightly do they love you.” Song of Solomon 1:4.

"With great delight I sat in His shadow, and His fruit was sweet to my taste. He brought me to the banqueting house, and His banner over me was love." Song of Solomon 2:3-4

"Until the day BREATHES and the shadows flee, turn, My beloved....," Song of Solomon 2:17

“The Spirit of the LORD is upon Me, Because He has anointed Me to preach the gospel to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to the captives And recovery of sight to the blind, To set at liberty those who are oppressed." Luke 4:18

—DWF